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i just watched pay it forward. its such a beautiful movie! omg. i dont think i've cried 5 times in 1 movie ever in my life.
cos i already blew out my candles.
merry christmas to all :)
i'm really exhausted. cycling more cycling more climbing east coast park blading late nights sleep debts uni apps. all in my head. all messed up.
i have this sore throat that keeps recurring but isnt very serious. but nonetheless causes phlegm buildup leading to a cough that sounds bad but is actually nothing much. hence the "flu". which my dad claims i'm recovering from and hence serves as an excuse as to why i should not do things etc. but managed to convince him to lemme cycle to kamya's hse last night. so my would-have-been-boring night was saved. by a hindi movie and talking.
going climbing tmr, 9am yishun mrt. taking the train will be insane, so i'm gonna try out this bus from tampines. cant find it on the internet but i think it's one of those 3 digit express bus things. shall check it out tmr. i hope i'm early.
think my thighs are more or less regaining some sense of normality, tho i still cant bend with ease and without grimacing. went for the firefly session yesterday, i remember not knowing what to expect, last minute presentation, feeling like everyone around me was extremely unique n intelligent, but thankfully all went okay. met some new people, who are probably closet high flyers pseudo normal people. (: nice guys.
prom was great. sabah was wonderful.
so now that the holidays are here, i'm complaining that i've got nothing to do? truth is, i've got lots of things to do, but, i dont wanna do them!
thanks tiff daryl mel fang dedrick belle for the christmas cards. :)
haha christmas really sounds like a lot of fun for those who celebrate it. sounds super fantastic actually. haha. hope ya'll had fun.
shall attempt to finish up uni apps asap. got the odac adjam competition on tues-wed. 31 Dec is a friday. i. can. do. it.
just came back from swimming at kamya's. will watch my csi downloads, thennn :D start my apps.
it seemed that the ball was in my court, then suddenly when i raise the racquet all ready to hit its like you took the ball away. why dont people give the correct reassurance when its required.
i'm cutting things really close this time. hoping that things will work out in the end. but then again, jc's shown me how you've gotta pedal yourself. and the slopes dont come easy. and certain handholds appear perfect but actually leave you with little to grip. falling in the outdoors is allowed. falling shouldnt be feared. but sometimes the fall's just too far down, and the climb's way too high up. in climbing you depend on your belayer to lower you down. he's letting you down. to safety. why cant they just pull you up. because that's your own work. some things you just gotta do yourself. some things i just gotta do myself.
i'm so confused. but honestly right now i'm too tired to care about my interests and whether they're protected or at risk or if i'm asking to get shot in the heart.
bleed to death.
i think i' m close to feeling like that time in sec4 or was it sec3 when we played that game and they blindfolded a few of us and put us in the field where we had to run away from certain chasing evils. put faith elsewhere and run. if you fall it its an accident, if you're still running like you're crazed and you're not falling, you have good friends. or pure luck. i like to think i have more than just luck.
what am i talking about? i'm so tired. goodnight.
i'm tempted to go to the dvd rental shop and rent a movie. or a series of csi. either one will do. i also have to continue with my uni apps. and clear my cupboard for my mom's sake.
and i also think i'm ready. i think.
How many times have you been pushed around
was anybody there
does anybody care
and how many times have your friends let you down
was anybody there
did anybody stare
how many times have your friends let you down
just open up your heart
just open up your mind
and how many times has your faith slipped away
well is anybody safe
does anybody pray
oh life is waiting for you
its all messed up but we're alive
oh life is waiting for you
its all messed up but we'll survive
how many days have you just slept away
is everybody high
is everyone afraid
how many times have you wished you were strong
have they ever seen your heart
have they ever seen your pain
she gets high
she gets lost
she gets drowned by the cost
twice a day
every week
in all her life
its 3 am and i'm still not sleeping.
there's nothing to do at home nowadays. msn is dying. does everyone have jobs? i should get one. what's everyone up to! going out is not as exciting anymore. staying home is slack and initially very peace-inducing, till you realise that there's nothing to do. i wish i were on holiday. one day, backpacking low budget trips will become a reality. i just need to learn one thing, how to take kare of myself responsibly inc health etc so that i can enjoy the trip minimally.
one day when i find some perfect husband material guy and hopefully i'm not like a million years old, i will go backpacking with him for the longest ever trip to the most exciting dangerous adrenaline inducing heart thumping places. and he can do the looking after and i will read the maps. GAH. i need to join amazing race. hey its actually the perfect Honeymoon. with a million bucks at stake. and a relationship. and your reputation. otherwise, very fun.
lives will be at stake tmr if i dont go sleep now. (mine if i'm late, others if i'm a bad belayer. touch wood etc have faith in me that will never happen.)
btw, confessions not to be acted upon by others.
i have commitment problems. i really do. i am also unstable. i am also insecure. i am also very sleepy. i. am. very. tired. i have low EQ. IQ? possibly. hence maybe why i failed this time. success shall be gained in other paths.
and i also realise my beloved dog judges me not. he is insanely cute. i love him very much. he is truly son of rock.
Scott, kid of Pebbles. Born Independence Day.
tired.
i need a job, as i've come to realise, and as how nizam also informed me, most girls have found a job or are looking for one. what on earth should i work as? (when did i ever have to worry about grownupproblems!)
anyhow, box car racer, there is!
climbing mount k again was similar to that time in sec4 but somehow infinitely different. i'm glad this sabah trip happened, and its taught me how you can make things happen if you only try.
lots of things gonna be happening in a short span of time. gotta prepare the firefly presentation today, go for the thing tmr, uni apps to settle and prepare for, early action results will be out in a few days.
in deciding the future, dont forget to live the life.
so when was it i said we were all kids?
when i was walking in parkway kamya n i saw this doremon show being put up for kids. it's quite retarded looking la, but kinda cute, and like the outfits, COMPLETELY disguises you, so we were thinking it'll actually make pretty fun jobs. hahaha..i mean i can totally remember doremon's moves and stuff. plus i could invent my own, i mean, ive seen hi-5 in action. plus i'd be totally dedicated to the cause man, ie. entertaining the children.
okay prom's in 2 days, quite exciting ah.. so unprepared. :) haha. the wonders of prom.